Sound of today #19
We just change
I know that change is inevitable. Change is the only thing that's constant. And of course I, like any other sane being, welcomes change when it is for the better, because life really would have been so incredibly boring without it. And I probably would have gone insane without any bad things happening to me as well. It's just.., sometimes I wish that some situations, some people wouldn't change, just because I liked things the way they were. When they were stable in a way that I was comfortable with, and had gotten to love even. The situations I wouldn't have minded keeping just the way they were.
Now it's all different. We're different and I've realised that it's pointless wishing or trying to get it back to the way it was. It cannot be done since it's not just up to me to decide how things are supposed to be. And that's just something I gotta learn to live with. Learn from, and who knows, in the future I might actually figure out how to be smarter and have the luck to keep things the way I want them, for a longer period of time. And learn to let go when I need to let go, without letting it hurt me as much as the letting go-part has done in the past. Believe in the future and live in the moment without being afraid that it'll all change too soon.
/Madeleine
Sound of today #18
Pull me forward
It's such a shame that I just happened to catch another bad throat infection at the same time as the sun is reappearing for the first time in 6 months... But as written above, I have a lot to look forward to, so I shall not complain. I'm happy. I'm grateful that the sun's finally come back.
/Madeleine
Sound of today #17
Fate and faith
I know that a lot of people question religion, fate and other believes that give people the explanation that everything happens for a reason. I'm one of them. I don't really think that every single event of our lives or the people we meet come into our lives because they were destined to. I believe that life is just a chain of random events, and it's up to people to decide what to do with all of the things that come our way. Life is about taking chances, I believe in that. I know that I rather take a chance than having to wonder what could have happened. I'd rather discover that I did something wrong than to have to live with the "what if?".
Wishing something would have been different is something that I'm very familiar with, I'd lie if I said that I wasn't. I know though, and try to work into my brain that I can't control anything, or anyone, but myself. So that's the one part of this life that I have the most control over and therefore what I have to focus on and try and make as good I possibly can.
Of course, that doesn't mean that I do things I don't want to do just for the hell of it, since another thing I believe in and try to follow is to always do what I feel is the right thing to do. If I always do that, then I can't look back at what I did and consider it being wrong. Of course I know that I make mistakes, but instead of wishing I could turn back time and change everything I try to see it as the right decision at the time, since I acted the way I thought was the best back then. Therefore, I'll try and continue to do what I think is right, try and learn from the mistakes I make and just hope that it will all lead me close to where I wanna be.
/Madeleine
Sound of today #16
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/Madeleine
Why I write?
/Madeleine