Maddie

This weekend has been awesome, friday I hung out with my sweet Louise which, as always, turned out to be awesome. It was sort of sucky though since we slept at my place but had to leave my bed around 7:30 saturday morning since I had choir rehersal at 9. That day was full of singing and that kind of stuff since we were gonna have two choir concerts in the evening. I was only a part of the first one though, since I had to leave at 6 in order to be at Taste of Chaos at Arenan in time for the concerts that I wanted to see there. Taste of Chaos is a gathering of many great different bands that tour together and play at a lot of different locations. This saturday, Stockholm was the location to be visited by a couple of these great rock bands that I simply couldn't miss.



I got there in time for Story of the Year which is one of my favourite bands, one of their best song is listed as Sound of today #5. Seeing that song live was an experience, a truly great one. All of their songs are awesome and we ended up at the front in the middle which always makes a concert even better since you feel so close to the band. You can even smell their sweat. Haha. At the end, the drummer threw one of his drumsticks at me but this other horrible b*tch stole it from me. We fought over it for like, five minutes or so but she won since I'm too much of a non-violent and nice person to punch her in the face.

Later on this Japanese band called Mucc played. It was very entertaining to see them play even though I don't listen to them. Still, it was pretty funny when I realised that Japanese people head-bang to the side, and also seeing the base player stumble to the floor in the middle of a song. After that, we watched and fell in love with the band Atreyu, all over again. That was the highlight of this already awesome evening. They had the longest time on stage and they were so great that I couldn't stop jumping up and down and scream my lungs out. It didn't exactly get any worse when one of the hot singers decided to take his shirt off. The whole time they were on stage was magical. All in all, this was a great saturday, since there is nothing like concerts to make you feel high on life (well, music in this case, but music is a great part of life, so you all see my point?). It was great, lots of thanks to Jenny and Carolina who shared this awesome night with me.

This sunday turned out to be pretty great as well. After sleeping till 1:20 in the afternoon I got up and went into town to meet Sandra. She's an old school friend of mine that I hadn't met in a long time, and she and I went shopping and then wandered into Muffin Bekery to have a couple of muffins. I bought a present for a friend and a dress and two tops for myself. It was all on sale so I thought it would be okay if I cheated just a little bit on my "keeping-all-of-my-money-in-my-wallet"-promise. Hopefully it'll all work out. I just felt like I didn't want to leave the stores without those things, and I mean, I can't say that I follow my emotions and tell others to do the same if I don't follow my emotions, right? I know what you're thinking, "excuses, excuses", but I don't really care right now, because music and shopping have one thing in common; they both put me in an extremely good mood that stays with me for a really long time. So I can see both my ticket to Taste of Chaos and my new clothes as an investment in my psychological health.

/Madeleine

Well what can I say, after a week of sickness I'm finally well again? Yay and woho, etc! Not that I've missed school or anything but the later part of my weekend turned out to be my get-better-again-period of this sick week of mine, which sort of sucked. But ey, maybe I needed the rest? I also happened to miss the Kill Hannah concert yeasterday at Debaser, since A) I wasn't well yet, B) I need to save money for my trip to the States and C) I had important choir practice that I could not miss, which is connected to my trip to the States. I don't know if I've mentioned it but the choir I'm in is going to compete internationally at Hawaii in the beginning of November. So I'm leaving for that in a couple of weeks and will be gone for 18 days. I can't wait, it's going to be so much fun to go back to the US of A. First we're gonna visit Los Angeles, then compete at Hawaii and then me and my family are going to spend a couple of days in New York and shop like we've never shopped before, hence the saving of the money. We leave the 30th of October and one might just guess how extremely excited I am?

Tonight I'm having dinner out with my godfather and right now I'm trying to study and somehow ended up here instead. Before that I'll stop by my dear Lisa's place and drop of some discs of Gilmore Girls that I've drugged this weekend when I had noting better to do. It turned out to be somewhat of my saviour. The beginning of the weekend was fun though, I went to a party with a couple of friends and during the saturday I first had lunch and went shopping with my wonderful Ariana and then played pool with my brother. So it's still been a good weekend, and hopefully this one will be even better. I'm gonna meet my sweet Louise on friday and during the saturday, after an entire day of choir practice and rehersal, it's time for Taste of Chaos, finally! There I will see two of my favourite bands; Atreyu and Story of the Year who are both really good bands so I suggest you check them out. I'll post one of my favourite songs by Story of the Year in my next post so you can just follow the link and listen to them. So I have a lot to look forward to even though school's still there and I can't spend as much money as I'd like to and everything, but life's still good. Especailly since friendship and good music are (almost) completely free, so again, yay, woho and etc! Bu-bye to you.

/Madeleine

Here we go again, coming down with a cold and a soar throat caused by an infection in my airways. Mehe. It is most likely due to my being sleep deprived thanks to all the stress I've aleady written/complained about in my previous posts. I've decided though that this is going to be the end of it, the last time I complain about it, since I'm sick (haha) of complaining. I just need to get it out there; I hate being sick. It's affecting plans and there is no time for it and it's genreally extremely annoying. To quote my awesome friend Ariana: ...GAH. That's all I have to say.

I relly happen to like my mother's best advise though when it comes to cures, which is sleep and ice cream. And lots of it. That is the two things you need in order to get better from anything. Unfortunately I still have to go to school tomorrow since I can't afford to miss anything, so I can't sleep all day and eat ice cream and not worrying about anything like I would like to. Although, I'm still meeting some pretty cool people tomorrow. First I have school and there are some very great people there, and then later on I'm going to meet my sweet Louise. So it's not going to be all horrible. Anyway, now I really have to get some of that precious sleep I mentioned earlier and hope that I get better soon. So... good night! 

/Madeleine

Am I the only one who feels like there is never, ever enough time to do all the things you want to do? No, I didn't think so. I've come to the conclusion that it's the one of the primary reasons to why I'm so extremely tired at the moment and that it's difficult to see the bright side of things because there is not enough time for you to do the things you want to do that makes you happy. And even, when you do, you don't have enough time to appreciate it, because you are too busy with something else. I'm very sorry for complaining but now I at least got that out of my system. Haha, excellent.

School is reallt crazy right now as I've written before but when there is also life, choir, music, friends, life, choir and everything else there is not really time to just... be. As someone so wisely said; it's all a matter of how you prioritze. Am I the only one who's really sick of hearing that? Well, Einstein, if I were to prioritize something over somthing else that would still mean that I don't have enough time to do all the things I want to, now would it? Plus, there are never times where you actually feel like you have too much time on your hands, because that is the moments life has taken away from you, in order to keep you busy. To quote Fall Out Boy: Get Busy Living or Get Busy Dying.

My point is that life is what happends right now, right? (I love using the same word twice in the same sentence), but however, if life really is what happens when you're busy making other plans and all that, we don't have enough time to see what is really there. We won't see the opportunities we have to make life what we want it to be and we'll only regret not actually giving ourselves the moments we need in order to be happy. If we only get caught up with what we have to do we'll never just pause, stop and think about the things we actually want to do, which are the things to focus on, since that is what truly matters.

So my best piece of advise for today is to just... chill, take a break from everything and just think about what it is that you want, and what makes you happy. I know it is really difficult, hey I'm still trying to learn how to deal with everything. I'm just saying that if you have a friend that you feel like you really want to spend time with, don't worry and just try to fit it in since it gives you so much energy to handle all of the boring stuff later on. And if it's something that will end up with you missing some good night's sleep, then so what? Sleep you can do when you're dead. And ah, isn't that another good saying that really just fixes all of your problems, huh? I know I'm still trying to live life like there is no tomorrow, and I'm not really one to preach, but I still know that life tends to make yourself feel better, when you give yourself enough time to spend on the things that make you feel better.

/Madeleine